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June 21, 2026 at 3:17 PM
June 21, 2026 at 3:14 PM
https://youtu.be/r7XJ6b5VWvU?si=ZEqJCpxynD75FJE_
Is it ok to speak? I'm a firm believer in
Stew's - "It's not weak to speak!"
But I will say, be prepared for the negativity that comes with it. I can promise you that their will be a lot of people that, stops talking to you, say you are doing it for attention, that no one wants to hear about it, say you are ruining peoples mood, and everybody gets sad.... Be prepared for a lot of people to walk out your life, they have and they did. All of these things has happened to me the last few weeks. I even had it happen since I've made and posted this video, I've lost subscribers🤷🏽♂️
I wish that I was just sad... I was diagnosed at age twelve with major reoccurring depression, and severe ADHD. And as an teen and into my adult years, I masked all of that with happiness, joking, being the funny one, not needing anything, and being agreeable. I was the listening ear that everyone needed, and the nonbiased one that will give the best advise. But when I couldn't laugh thing off anymore and asked for help it was no where to be found... In the last five years, I've been on life support, had several other medical issues that could have killed me, as well as the suicidal thought and suicidal ideologies. Which brings me to current day. First of the year my wife started having what we now know are Psychogenic nonepileptic seizures (PNES). She was the main source of income in our home due to my medical issues the last few years. And she hasn't been able to work nor do things at home. So I have been trying my best to do all the house work, keep up with bill, drive her and myself to places we need to be, and I have documented and recorded pretty much every episode she has had.
Even though she has said that I'm doing a good job. Everyone and I do mean everyone with exception of my wife, and three of our female friends, has said that I'm not doing enough. and that I'm the cause of her condition. Even though she has had them when, I was in the hospital with a heart issues from the stress of all of this. We don't have any income, no food assistance, and I've been selling off my stuff like crazy to keep the utilities on. But last week the power was cut, and an application for assistance was denied because I didn't turn paperwork in on time (one of my adhd executive function deficiencies) And I reached out to a few friends and told them I was on the edge and didn't think I could do this anymore and that life wasn't for me... I was met with "you will be ok, we all have tough times" The next day, right before the first scenes in this video, I had decided that I was going to end my life. I only had 1s batts charged and decided that I wanted to take one last flight... after I went in and had gone to my office, my wife started having a slightly worse than mild episode. These present the same as epileptic seizures. As I recorded her, i looked over at my fur babies, and then back at her. And wanted to want to stay, but even that didn't make the feeling and decision to subside. as she came out of her episode, the first thing she said, almost as if she knew, she said "please stay..." Once she was fully aware, she said that if no one else loves me that she did, and no matter what anyone else say, she needs me, and the fur babies need me. And then opened my eyes to the fact that, indeed no one had helped us in the six months this was going on....
I stayed for my family. Amanda my wife, and my fur shit's Zoey, Chloe, Speedy, and Lewi.
I've been saying "ONE SECOND!" One second can change your life, and one second did. My wife saying that, broke my thought and plans for one second.... And because of that I'm still here. I know that this wont get read, but if one person does, know that its gonna be tough, and that thing will crumble beneath your feet. But please, choose life, I know that deep down I'm gonna always be a little scared of myself. And I have to do my best to live with that. But for now I stay for them. But at some point I hope I stay for me.
It's Not Weak to Speak! And just take One Second!
You are Loved, You are Cared About, You are Worthy of Life, and You are Necessary!
Choose to Stay! 🖤
June 1, 2026 at 3:23 PM
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February 11, 2026 at 3:12 AM
Come hang with mad man! Live stream, talking about Sloss drone derby! https://www.youtube.com/live/gFBNzkItCNM?si=JYOd0IWkt4yyZGN9
February 9, 2026 at 12:01 AM
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February 7, 2026 at 9:44 PM
February 5, 2026 at 3:58 AM
February 2, 2026 at 9:43 PM
Has anyone had any luck getting through to Emax-USA? They sent me the wrong items, I opened a ticket… and noticed I still had some pending from last July. But really, I’m not trying to be out of some money because someone else messed up. Really like their products but the customer service needs a better pid tune lol
Photo is what I’m trying to repair 😅
December 26, 2025 at 12:10 AM
December 22, 2025 at 12:58 AM
December 11, 2025 at 1:26 PM
Shameful plug as well as any thoughts and or opinions on witch I should build would be awesome! http://youtube.com/post/Ugkx4tdrIQkkV5boHNdNEdX7rZnmYHJ6YjIf?si=pTL5gwZBJPvGeCqS
October 12, 2025 at 8:30 PM
A little short of me trying to get better and try new moves. Enjoy!
Thinking about turning this into a little mini series about me learning and getting better. Not sure though.
October 12, 2025 at 8:26 PM
Speedy-Bot!
I used the SpeedyBee F4 Mini on my first build, a Grinderino. I am still very "green" in the hobby, and can't say 100% how it flies to others. But for me it's awesome. it has sooo much more power and response than any of the other quads I fly. I was lucky enough to get this stateside, before the prices went up earlier this year. And honestly glad I snagged two😅 I will definitely be using another in Grinderino #2! The only negative which isn't with the board itself really. Is that the pads are pretty small and it takes patients and precision when soldering it up. I used a SpeedyBee practice board right before soldering this, just to be sure I didn't make mistakes 😁
October 6, 2025 at 12:14 AM
Ripping for cheap!
This is an amazing little quad. I'm someone who is still in my freshman years, and this little quad has given me a lot of confidence to fly my bigger more powerful rigs. This is always used for my warm up packs. And the price! If you can still get it sub $150 is it definitely worth it.
October 1, 2025 at 5:24 AM
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September 27, 2025 at 3:16 AM
I guess, besides the price point, analog gives me nostalgia of old skool tube tv. Anyway, This was my first FPV sunset, and I honestly loved it, the experience, how it looked, and how it made me feel... at shaky and gigglely lol
September 27, 2025 at 3:11 AM
This is technically My “First” ground up, all new parts build. can’t fly it that great but eventually I’ll be able to rip with the best of ya!
Frame: Grinderino
Stack: SpeedyBee f4Mini
Motors: VCI 1605 3650kv
Rx: RadioMaster Rp1
Vtx: Hglrc Zeus nano
Camera: Runcam Phoenix 2
Antenna: foxeer lollipop
Buzzer: Vifly Finder Mini
Props: Gemfan 3520 3.5x2.0
Skids: flyhighfpv
Action Cam: Runcam Thumb 2
